Feeling hopeless..

Hi all. I'm having a tougher day today. I'm now on OPK day 80 and have yet to get my first positive. I've recently started up my fall classes again, so in a lot of ways it's helping take my mind off of ttc. However, the more time that passes, the more I'm feeling like it will never happen for us. We are now into September, which on the 23rd will officially mark one year that we have been trying. I'm really struggling with what I should do, I've thought about not testing anymore because it feels like a giant waste of time but on the other hand, I've come this far already so what if the first day I decide not to test, that is my positive? I try to stay optimistic most of the time, but I have my days...this being one of them that I get down on myself. My husband has been very supportive through all of this, and I'm so grateful for that. I don't really talk to my friends or family about what we're going through because nobody I know has ever struggled with infertility and I feel like they won't understand and to be honest, it's really emotional to talk about. Everyday I see the negative, a piece of my heart feels like its breaking. I only have about four months until I will be seen by a new doctor and hopefully can get some questions answered but I'm still thinking I may have PCOS. Until next time....

OPK Day 26

Hi Everyone! So I have now been testing for 26 days and have yet to get my first positive. Because I am currently in school for Medical Assistance, I tend to self diagnose a lot and a common condition I'm beginning to worry that I have is PCOS. I've done a lot of research and I mimic just about every symptom. I made an appointment with a new Dr to do some testing and make a plan of action but unfortunately she is in such high demand that my appointment isn't until January!! So we will continue to try naturally and hope that we are lucky enough to conceive in the next few months!!

Happy TTCing!!

OPK Day 3

So I'm on Day 3 of the OPK, and I got another negative result. I'm actually kind of nervous because we are going away this weekend with some good friends of ours and we decided to all share a hotel room to save $ so I'm fearing that I will test on Friday and of course it would be positive because we won't really have a chance to "try" this weekend. I would hate to lose out on a whole cycle, but who knows. I guess we will see when Friday comes! I also started taking prenatal vitamins and they are delish! I'm not much of a pill person (I will avoid even taking an advil for a headache unless I'm just about in tears) so I knew I wanted to find a gummy and after doing quite a bit of research, I'm in love with the Vitafusion prenatals. They taste like candy, have no bad after taste and most of the reviews I read said even after conceiving these don't make you sick to your stomach like a lot of other vitamins might. They were a great price, I picked up a 90 ct bottle for less than $10. Directions say to take 2 per day, so they will last 1.5 months...not bad. The ONLY complaints I really saw were that they don't contain iron or calcium, which is obviously very important for a pregnant woman but I really struggled to find a vitamin that contained EVERYTHING required so I think I will just take a separate iron supplement and I'm really not worried about calcium because I live in Wisconsin and eat an insane amount of dairy! If anyone has found a different gummy vitamin that they would recommend, let me know! Until next time...

Happy TTCing!!

FAST FORWARD

Ok, so instead of talking about the past and filling you guys in on EVERY detail I think I will summarize and basically start fresh and talk about my day to day ttc struggles! SO, after officially ttc for 9 months naturally, I've decided I need to be more proactive in making something happen! I haven't made an appointment with the doctor yet because they say you should wait 12ish months before seeking help, so I have three months to go and because I am so damn stubborn and hate going to the doctor, I REALLY want this to work naturally. Let's see, like I said in one of my older posts I have an extremely irregular period, so counting cycle days really isn't an option for me. Over the last 9 months, my husband and I have been going about our usual business and I was taking a pregnancy test about every 3-4 weeks....with no luck. I thought about what route I'd like to go next....either tracking my basal body temp (BBT) or using an ovulation predictor kit (OPK), I decided to go with the OPK and I'm super excited because I got a great deal off EBAY, and my tests showed up today!! So Day 1, I thought I would do a pregnancy test first just because it's been about two weeks, and it was negative. Next I took the ovulation test which was also negative...boo! For those of you who aren't familiar with OPKs...the way it works is you dip the test strip in a cup of your urine for 5 seconds, then lay the test flat and wait a few minutes, it will detect your level luteinizing hormone (LH) which is your hormone that surges right before ovulation. If you get a positive, that means you should be ovulating in 24-48 hours (depending on the test). I'm going to be testing every day for the next month and hopefully by being able to better track my ovulation, it will happen for us soon!! 

Until next time!!

Officially trying!

So when we first began ttc, I thought it would be so quick and easy! I was 23 at the time, he was 25 and healthy as can be, I am somewhat healthy (I have IBD) but nothing TOO major. At this point, I wasn't worried about counting days, taking temperatures etc. I just kept thinking to myself....ya know as a teenager you try EVERYTHING you can NOT to get pregnant, so it's going to happen so fast..right?!? I'll have to admit, at first I was pretty clueless about how difficult it can actually be to get pregnant. I have an extremely irregular period, mostly attributed to stress (trying to juggle working full time and college) and that I do kind of yo-yo with my weight. I've just been irregular for years, it's just something I got used to. Since I am so irregular, after about three weeks of ttc I started testing just about every other week. After the second negative, I immediately jumped to conclusions thinking there must be something wrong with me, this was supposed to be so easy...and actually got really down on myself. It was at this time that my sister announced she was pregnant! She said it was a surprise, they weren't even trying. Of course I was so happy for her, and excited to have a new niece or nephew. After I got off the phone with her, I just broke down in tears, here we were wanting SO bad to be the ones announcing our pregnancy, and when she wasn't even trying, she got to. I was mad at myself for crying because I was so happy for her but I couldn't help it. That was a day I won't forget, filled with so many different emotions!

Intro

I thought since I enjoy writing so much this would probably be a good outlet for me. I really enjoy reading other blogs and a lot of times it's helpful to know other people are going through the same thing as I am...I feel much less alone! So let me tell you a little about myself and my journey ttc. I met and fell in love with my husband when I was 16, and 7 years later, in September 2011 we were married. We discussed children in our future quite a few times before getting married but at the time, it never seemed like anything that HAD to be in the cards for us. Right after we got married, a friend of mine gave birth to a beautiful baby boy, we went to visit and it was like a light switch...I was baby crazy!! After I saw my husband holding the baby and how naturally it came to him, I could just picture him holding our baby someday. I waited a few days to talk to him about it because I thought maybe the initial excitement of seeing a new baby would wear off but it didn't. So here I was, about two weeks after getting married, talking to my husband about wanting a baby, I was so nervous but much to my surprise, he was excited about it as well and we began officially "trying." I never wanted to be one of those people that immediately got pregnant after getting married because I wanted time to be newlyweds, but at this point, I didn't care. It was then that I realized how badly I wanted to be a mom!