Feeling hopeless..

Hi all. I'm having a tougher day today. I'm now on OPK day 80 and have yet to get my first positive. I've recently started up my fall classes again, so in a lot of ways it's helping take my mind off of ttc. However, the more time that passes, the more I'm feeling like it will never happen for us. We are now into September, which on the 23rd will officially mark one year that we have been trying. I'm really struggling with what I should do, I've thought about not testing anymore because it feels like a giant waste of time but on the other hand, I've come this far already so what if the first day I decide not to test, that is my positive? I try to stay optimistic most of the time, but I have my days...this being one of them that I get down on myself. My husband has been very supportive through all of this, and I'm so grateful for that. I don't really talk to my friends or family about what we're going through because nobody I know has ever struggled with infertility and I feel like they won't understand and to be honest, it's really emotional to talk about. Everyday I see the negative, a piece of my heart feels like its breaking. I only have about four months until I will be seen by a new doctor and hopefully can get some questions answered but I'm still thinking I may have PCOS. Until next time....